Hi everyone, hope you had a lovely Bandicoot Month. I’m currently in the editing process of the next Crash video. Yep, I missed June again. It’s a tired running gag at this point. I do tend to forget that not every single one of you follows me on social media or reads pinned comments on my videos, so for the sake of getting the information out there to anyone who may have missed it - I wanted to let you all know what’s been happening on our end, and why once again I’m behind on work and streaming. A couple of months ago, my lovely fiancée Cerys (who you would most likely recognise as the wheezing smiley face on my EyeToy video) was diagnosed with triple negative breast cancer - one of the fastest growing and most aggressive types (she is completely okay with me telling you this, I asked her permission). Mix that in with the my granddad getting diagnosed with oesophagus cancer in the second half of 2023 and then passing away in early 2024 has already made this year an absolute hellride for us. During all of this I also needed a revision on multiple medications for my own shit causing me to be totally out of action for a few days here and there - it’s been non-stop. I’m so sorry to dump this heavy news on you all - but PLEASE don’t worry about us - I want to make this absolutely crystal clear. Despite all of what I just said, we are all in a much better position than we were a few months ago. Cerys’ chemo has already started obliterating the tumour, we have gone through/sorted out all of my granddad’s loose ends/funeral, and all of my meds have balanced out perfectly and I feel a million times more in control than I ever have done in my life. The reason I am letting you all know about this stuff isn’t for sympathy, or a call for support or ANYTHING else - I can’t stomach that thought. It’s purely to let you know where I am and where my time has been going recently - and why my hair is all shaved off (solidarity!). I can’t assume that any of you care about my personal stuff behind the scenes, and I’m sure the majority of you JUST want to see what I make - which is completely valid. Hence, I wanted to let you know about all of this so you know that I’m not getting complacent or running out of ideas or whatever - I’m merely informing you on the explanation why uploads have been so dry and streams so infrequent. Last year was already much slower than I was hoping for in terms of uploads and streams, and I do apologise - 2023 and 2024 have just thrown more at us and our lives than we EVER anticipated, and whenever I’m able to stream or work on videos, I promise you that’s what I’m doing. Life has an annoyingly funny way of just going completely tits up all at once and lasting for months and months. Cerys and I wanted to get married this year, and I even turned 30 this June during all of this - perfect timing, right?! Hahaha. Life can be a borderline dark comedy sometimes. Either way I’ll stop rambling - all you need to know is that all things considered, we’re doing okay, and we’re all trucking forward. The kids are taking everything like champs, as well. My next video is another stupid monster, I’m aiming to stream a lot more (Cerys loves being a part of them and appreciates the distraction), and I’m working on vids as much as possible whenever I’m not helping out with near-daily hospital trips, chemo side effects and other general stuff you could imagine - alongside all the unrelated family stuff we usually go through! If you’d like to take anything from this, I suppose it’s a plea to just remember that whenever your favourite creators seem to be taking a while to get things done, that there’s always a possibility that heavy personal stuff is going on behind the scenes. We aren’t factories or machines, we’re people. Lots of us don’t have offices, or even have teams - I don’t have either of them - I’m mostly a one-man-show. I write, I ‘star’ (hate using that word lol), I edit, and Olly films while Cerys assists. I get told a lot that I could get an editor for the main channel, but as far as I’m concerned, my edits ARE me, and I would never be comfortable letting anyone else try to replicate how I make my stuff (aside from secondary channels, obviously). Shit happens, and not everyone may want to tell you - so just consider that there MIGHT be stuff happening that you don’t know about with people you enjoy the work of. Thank you all so much again for your continued support and sticking around no matter how long it takes me to get something out to entertain you. I’m truly blessed that I’m in a position where I can spend quality time with the people that mean the most to me in my life, support them through the worst things that are thrown at them, and still pay the bills while doing something I absolutely love for a job. That is all down to you, and I appreciate all of you for allowing me to do that. Thank you. Keep your loved ones close. Remember the important things in your life. Don’t get bogged down by internet horseshit and social media doomscrolling. Real things around you take precedence, because one day they suddenly might not be there. Love to you all. #fuckcancer
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